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after so long ………..

November 12th, 2009 by alyssa-meny

i guess it has been so long till my last visit to my own frenster … hu2

n why is tat ? … not bcos of pesbuk .. ha3 … well, i donno .. maybe my heart told me not to ..or maybe bcos frenster holds so much unforgettable memories 4 me .. which i cudnt delete it .. altho i wanna do it badly .. i donno .. but tonite , i came to my old frenster .. visited my old pages .. my so called blog .. n ya Allah , it hurts me .. to read my own stories.. d very old stories ..

why sometimes .. d heart juz cudnt b stronger .. am i to blame ? or is it normal ? why can i juz move on ? but i thot i’ve move on already .. i thot i’ve let go of everything .. but the fact is , the heart still dying inside i guess … n i can lie to everyone or anyone .. but yupp i cant lie to myself ..n without ashamed , i admit it ..  iam missing something or someone in my life .. no matter how hard i tried before , i failed ! .. being a great but stupid lover .. i shud suffer d consequences ..

sometimes i juz donno how to express my feelings , what i’ve felt inside .. n actually iam looking for someone who can hear me .. who listens .. and understands .. someone who without prejudice or anything give me supports n stop telling me how stupid iam for doing what iam doing rite now … i need someone who can tell me ,” it’s ok .. juz let it out .. juz do whatever things that u think is d best 4 u , .. i’ll b here 4u .. 2b by ur side n 2 support u ” ……but why , of all my frenz, my family .. noone understands why i made this decision, why i cudnt let go .. why iam keeping this love, this feeling .. why d empty spaces in my heart .. keep bleeding softly .. n who can understand bout d love tats so strong ???? ……… n iam keeping it to myself .. talking to myself .. everyday everynight … n to d stars …

juz cudnt write any longer .. need to stop here ……. !~

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my new ’so called’ hobby is like killin’ me softly…………..huhu

November 11th, 2008 by alyssa-meny

i’ve never had a hobby before except for reading of course…….huhu

but then bout’ 2 weeks ago i found this new addicting hobby…it was juz like love at a first sight…i fell in love just like that…like they said, no turnin’ back…..i found the thing that i really like!

n now i’ve been thinking…..maybe i’m too over the limits already…coz sometimes it makes me sleep @ almost 3am….n sometimes i think about it juz a second before i zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz(tido…)….n sometimes the first thing in my mind after i woke up is….of course, my new hobby!!

this surely has to be stopped…..i have to reduce the amount of time that i’ve been wasting doing it…..Ya Allah, help me……

and….nope!!…i won’t tell you what my new hobby is or you’ll surely be laughing at me over n over again……………..huhu

xoxo

alyssa..

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..the good old days..make me smile!

October 31st, 2008 by alyssa-meny

there were a time in our life..when we suddenly been visited by the old memories..
and tonite..from out of nowhere, my mind brings me to the day when i was stil single n available…huhu
livin’ happily wit my beloved frenz somewhere in sec 8, shah alam..
n tonite i’d like to go back to the day when i was crazily addicted to ‘ my bestfriend’s wedding’..by julia robert!
what a funny entertainin film…!!
that time my fren eton was the one who brought the cd..n we kept on watchin’ it over n over again..
tq, eton!
the best part was the singin’ part…so kelakar!..the opening song..’wishing n hoping’
…so good yet so funny n so meaningful…
so..i wanna share it wit u ouls the lyric of d song..n u can also watch it @ youtube…u’ll definitely enjoy it!

Springfield, Dusty:
“Wishin’ and Hopin’”

Wishin’, and hopin’, and thinkin’, and prayin’,
planning and dreamin’ each night of his charms.
That won’t get you into his arms!

So if your’re looking for love you can share!

All you gotta to is hold him, and kiss him, and love him,
and show him that you care.

Show him that you care, just for him.
Do the things that he likes to do.
Wear your hair just for him, ’cause,
you won’t get him, thinkin’ and a prayin’,
whishin’ and a hopin’.

‘Cause wishin’, and hopin’, and thinkin’, and prayin’,
planning and dreamin’ his kisses will start.
That won’t get you into his heart!

So if you’re thinking how great true love is!

All you gotta to is hold him, and kiss him, and squeeze him, and love him.
Yeah, just do it!
And after you do, you will be his.

You gotta show him that you care just for him.
Do the things that he likes to do.
Wear your hair just for him, ’cause,
you won’t get him, thinkin’ and a prayin’,
whishin’ and a hopin’.

‘Cause wishin’, and hopin’, and thinkin’, and prayin’,
planning and dreamin’ his kisses will start.
That won’t get you into his heart!

So if you’re thinking how great true love is!

All you gotta to is hold him, and kiss him, and squeeze him, and love him.
Yeah, just do it!
And after you do, you will be his.

You will be his.

You will be his!

n also not to forget..the ’say a little prayer for you’ song
u’ll be smiling to urself for whole day long..
for me, good movies are hard to find..like a good frenz!
it has been bout 10 years…everytime i think of julia robert@ my bestfriend’s wedding@wishing n hoping@ sec 8 shah alam..n so many many more….evrything will make me think of my frenz..
how can i forgot such a beautiful memories wit beautiful frenz..

miss ya all- eton,gha,norsi,liza,siti,azie…my girls@502!

xoxo

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OUR 7th ANNIVERSARY….

October 30th, 2008 by alyssa-meny

Firstly..i’d like to say it’s not my weddin’ anniversary..HUHU
it’s actually my ‘ so called 1st dating anniversary‘…poyo rite!

but then,..this date means so much to me..
the ups n down of our relationship..the happy moment the laughing..the smile…the nice journey to form the bond that we’ve had now..the undying love..
the endless love…too sweet too remember!
being ‘jiwang’ ler plakk…melankolik!

not to forget,
the hard time…like storm in the desert..tsunami in our love life!..soo painful!
the tears…
the broken promises..
the broken heart….

but..thank Allah..we managed to go thru all the barriers..dgn jayanya!
n now i know…
no matter what’ll come on our way now n then..
we’ll surely handle it well….InsyaAllah!

Dear..
u know how much i love u
hope our marriage will last forever….till death do us apart!
che wah!

me the cinderella
my hubby the ‘putera katak’……..lol

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GOODBYE MEASLES………

October 23rd, 2008 by alyssa-meny

Hope this is a forever goodbye between u n me….
…………..

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DON’T WORRY BE HAPPY

October 22nd, 2008 by alyssa-meny

This is my present attitude about life…
I feel like encouraging all of you to don’t worry about the situations and circumstances that are going on presently in your life.
Don’t worry! Be Happy! Know why??
Cause God’s got everything under control.
I’m learning that whether I worry or not, it’s not going to change a thing. Be Happy!
I feel like happiness is not only a choice, but also like an act of faith. It’s as if you’re saying…I choose to be happy now, because I know my circumstances are about to change!
I know that the best is yet to come. Don’t worry! Be Happy!
Like Bobby McFerrin says, “Put a smile on your face!”
Yeah…I’m sick of worrying, being sad, pissed, frustrated, ticked, upset…it takes so much work to do all of those things, if you really think about it. So here’s what I suggest we all do in this upcoming week…
turn those frowns upside down

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d new desperate housewives season 5!!!

October 22nd, 2008 by alyssa-meny

d most ” hardly can’t wait ” tv series..finally on air!
with the greatest changes ever..shocking but interesting!!

Gaby Solis..was once the glamorous trophy wife of a wealth businessman. Now after 5 years, she’s a stay-at-home mom wit 2 daughters ( yeah, believe it! ) and lives life to a very unglamorous budget…I miss the old gaby, mean n selfish!!

Susan..her love life had never been simple..but, wit a young son, an ex husband ( not d annoyin’ karl ) and an unlikely boyfriend, her search for romance had become trickier n livelier than ever before..i don’t get it, why they were divorced?

Lynette Scavo..Time has made Lynette’s life anything but easier..Her twins have grown into troublesome teenagers and her husband’s as big a dreamer as ever..but you know, lynette always has a way….

Bree Hodge…since benjamin has been taken away by danielle..what was once her garage has now become an office and a test kitchen, where her life as a housewife and work as a caterer come crashing together..

edie britt…she’s back to wisteria lane..with a man she called a ‘ husband’

i just can’t wait to see the full episodes of season 5…they are surely my fav desperate housewives ever!

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SURPRISED VISIT by MEASLES

October 22nd, 2008 by alyssa-meny

welcoming measles to my life..hope it’ll stay for a while only..

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CRY……

July 8th, 2008 by alyssa-meny

Cry

cry
and then they fell
streams of salty tears

cry
and let it all out
hit the floor
wet your face and
cry

stories behind the tears
stories of joy
stories of sadness
stories of anger
but it’s ok to simply
cry
 
don’t be ashamed or afraid
love the god who allowed you to
cry

those tears that run down your face
don’t wipe them away
let them travel
let them be alive in those moments that you
cry

why am i so ashamed of it
why don’t i let myself let go
is it so wrong
what does it say about me
am i to weak
if i
cry

moz-screenshot-1.jpgmoz-screenshot-2.jpgdoes it mean i’ve failed
does it mean that i can’t do it
does it mean that i am worthless if i
cry

xoxo

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filem ayat-ayat cinta

July 7th, 2008 by alyssa-meny


Aac1

“AYAT-AYAT CINTA”

aku dh tgk filem ayat-ayat cita tuk’ kali kdua mlm td..cz ms 1st time aku tgk ade ayat2 yg aku x phm..cz ini adlh filem dr indnesia n xde sbttle BM, so ms dia brckp laju aku xleh nk tangkp ape yg dia mksudkan…so aku cuba tuk’ tgk skali kot2 ade yg aku trlepas pandang masa tuh
so,mlm td aku  tgk skali lagi…wpun ada gak time aku x phm tp scara ksluruhan jln citer nye aku phm…
n aku wt ksmpulan yg citer ni btul2 len dr yg len
dr segi crita, watak dsb

mngkin klo hnya mndgr dr tajuk nye, kita akan ingt citer ni 100% cerita cinta..mmg bnyk ttg cinta dlm cite ni,cinta pndg prtama, cinta yg x dibalas..cinta yg mnjadikn kita seorg yg kuat, tabah, sanggup brkorban tuk’ kbhagiaan org yg kita syg..
tp, bukan setakat itu shj…..
citer ni adlh crite yg diadaptasi dr Al-Quran dan Islam scra kseluruhannya..
khidupan sharian kita, percintaan kita, kata-kata kita..
kbahagian kgmbiraan…
dan bgaimana kkuatan iman kita saat kita dilanda musibah yg kita smakin mrasakn yg kita tiada jln kluar lagi…
saat kita hmpir mrasakn yg dunia ini tdk brlaku adil kpd kita
………..

begini kisah nye…
mngenai seorg pelajar lelaki yg brnama fahri, pelajar diuni al-azhar..dsnangi rakan n guru2..dia dgambrkn sbg seorg yg baik,brani brsuara,mmahami Islam n mnjalni khidupan brteraskn ajarn Islam..ade 1 scene mnujkkan bgaimana dia brtikam lidah dgn seorg tua mngenai cr yg spatutnya kita mlyn org yg bkn Islam, wpun dia akhirnya dtumbuk.. n jg scene dmana dia mnrangkn kpd seorg wrtwn bkn Islam ttg kecantikn Islam….

Dia jg brsahabat baik dgn seorg gadis bukan Islam yg brnama Maria ..yg mnghuni d tngkat atas rumahnya..ditunjukkn bgaimana Maria slalu mnghntr brg2 dgn mnrunkan bakul yg diikat dgn tali dr tngkp rmh nya k rumah fahri…

Dia jg dgn prtolongan Maria myelamatkn seorng gadis dr sering dipukul dan didera lelaki yg durjana, dan gadis itu dprtemukn dgn kluarganya… klo x salah nama gadis tu nora..

Dia jg ditemukn dgn seorg gadis brtudung litup kali prtamanya ktika ddlm train, gadis yg ckup mnyeksa jiwanya walau hny dgn mlihat mata gadis itu..aisyah! Stlh bbrape kali brlaku prtemuan yg x djangka dgn aisyah…dia nekad mngambil aisyah sbg isteri..jg dtunjukkn bgaimana sblm prnikahan aisyah mnunjukkn muka nya kpd fahri..suasana prnikahan antra fahri n aisyah dgarap dgn bgitu cantik n syahdu skali…ckup indah!

Fahri mngkin tdk sedar, bila dia sah mnjadi suami aisyah..
jauh dr smua itu…
ada air mata yg brguguran
ada hati yang terluka….
ada jiwa yg sengsara…
lantas,
mnmbulkn prasaan tuk’ lari jauh
mncipta dendam yg dlm trbuku

Sgl nye brlaku skelip mata…bru hmpir sbulan fahri n aisyah brgelar suami isteri..
fahri drmpas dgn kejam dr aisyah
dheret tanpa belas
dicaci n dimaki
dihina n dikeji
Fahri dituduh merogol nora dan dmasukkn dlm pnjara smntra mnunggu saat bicara

pnjara itu dgambrkn ckup dhaif..fahri dletakkn brsama seorg banduan yg seakan dciptakan watak nye, x brape btul!..
sel yg bkn shj dduduki oleh manusia ttapi jg tikus2 yg brkeliaran…mnjadikan keadaan yg ckup kotor n jijik
namun fahri dciptakan wataknya seorg yg kuat & tabah..dtunjukkn bgaimana dia solat bralaskn baju tshirt smbil dprhati rkn spenjaranya..

namun, stlh prbicraan mula brlangsung, dan tiada tnda2 fahri boleh terlepas…dan aisyah mula terpikir,cukup dlm kh dia mngenali fahri..dgn prkenalan sngkat dan trus brkawin …aisyah sdr yg dia x mngenali siapa fahri sbnr nye…dan satu2 saksi yg pnting ialah maria gadis kristian yg mnjadi sahabatnya dulu…
sgl nya brtmbah sulit apabila maria sdg koma & doktor mnyatakn maria seakan hlg smngt tuk’ hdup..sbb itu dia x cuba tuk’ bangun dr lena nya…
dan knci nya adalah pd fahri….
dlm diam, maria mnyintai fahri..dan dia lah yg pling trluka saat fahri diijabkabulkan..krn itu dia cuba mlarikn diri nya dr dunia ini….di ckup sngsara shngga dia memlih tuk’ trus trbaring kaku..

saat pling aku suka ialah saat fahri hmpir brputus asa & kcewa,..dtunjukkn bgaimana fahri gagal tuk’ mgngkt takbir dan dtertawakn oleh teman pnjara nya….keadaan brtmbh buruk apabila fahri mndpt surat yg mnyatakan dia dbuang dari uni al-azhar…bgaimana fahri trbaring dilantai yg kotor smbil mnangis……..
dan, teman pnjara yg seakan x betul itu…tiba2 mnjadi penasihat yg mngagumkan…
dia berkata…
‘itu bukan kiamat,fahri!! bangun fahri…Allah sdg brbicara dgn mu fahri…’
dan disusuli dgn jritan fahri…
‘ apa dosa aku pd Allah ‘…
dan dia mngigatkn fahri ttg kisah Nabi Yusuf  dgn zulaikha..
dan bagaimana Nabi Yusuf berdoa..
” Ya Allah, jika mmg khidupan pnjara lbih brerti drku dr dunia luar..aku lbih rela tnggal dipenjara tp dekat dnganMu drpd aku  hdup brsama mnusia pndusta..”

Mmg byk kelainan crite ini dr crite2 yg lain..dan bgaimana murni & suci hati seorang aisyah yang dgambarkn ddlam crite ini..ktabahan dan kekuatan aisyah yg cuba dpamerkan walpun ht nya mnangis..bgaimana aisyah hampir mngglkan fahri tuk’ mnjalani hdup yg baru…

cerita ni dgn jaya nya mmpu mmbuat aku sebak n mnangis..
err..naper aku brcrite psl citer ni,
ntah…..aku pn xtau nape!

xoxo

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